November 2009
9 posts
Like scarecrows that fuel this flame
Thank you for mocking my lack of motivation. Thank you so much. You make me feel so good about myself. It doesn’t make me want to kill myself even more now. Oh, no no. I can’t believe you pay so little attention to me that you can’t even tell how depressed I am. Of course you can’t, you have so~ much work to do. No time for anything else, because WORK IS PROVIDING US WITH...
So long and goodnight
So even though I really should be focusing on chemistry right now, I can’t. Because of you. But it’s really my fault. Anyways.
Oh my goodness, I CANNOT like you. MBOM by DCFC came on shuffle right now, and I can’t believe I forgot about every little thing she told me about being confused about liking you. She really really liked you. She did her english project on you. She was...
Bike Ride
I told myself I wouldn’t watch Glee just because everyone else is. But just, everyone’s talking about it. And you know who watches it, and he seems to like it. So I watched the first episode, and now I’m rushing through my homework so I can watch at least one more episode tonight. Wot. I don’t think it’s OMGAMAZING. But I want to know what happens next. It’s...
Broken. Shadows.
I wish winter would hurry up and be here. I like winter, probably the most. Because it feels like an excuse to mope around and disappear in blankets and wear sweaters and jackets and just get cozy. I hate summer because it is hot and bright and no one wears decent clothing. And I’m pretty sure it’s when I get annoyed by girls who chose to break the dress code daily. It’s not like...
Counting down like sheeps sent to slaughter
I promised myself I wouldn’t be a sloth this weekend, but I don’t even think that’s physically possible. I have a pile of homework waiting to be done. Not literally a pile. But really, where’s the motivation? It took me nearly 2 hours to get out of bed. I wish it was Christmas break already, but then I don’t. Because break means we would’ve taken finals and...
Now I'm a mess
Who would I like to see right now? I’d like to see you. I’d like to see you and only you. And I’d like to sit on the top of a hill with some red bull, telling stories. And even though that’s not our thing, we could make it our thing. Because I want us to have something so badly. I don’t want to share you with anyone. And I guess that’s what liking someone does...
You've never felt so free
So despite all these depressing~ and cynical thoughts, I’m still thinking about you and how much I like making you smile, and laugh. And just. I don’t know. I like you. A lot. I don’t know why. I don’t know why I’m so comfortable around you, yet so on edge around you. And I get so giddy when I see you, even at the most expected times and places. And I’ve liked...
Don't, and we will never know
I don’t have a best friend, and sometimes I’m not okay with that. Most of the time, it’s really whatever. Who needs someone clinging to them 24/7? But then there are those really tough times when surface friends just don’t suffice. When you really need someone to tell you they’ll miss you if you cut the string. When it’s the last straw, and you’re so close...
Is This It?
Life’s overrated so let’s just leave. I don’t know how or why or where or who or what. But I know we have to now. Because this world is selfish, superficial, and false. There’s only one good season, and that’s not enough anymore. It’s not okay with me to glide through the other three. Numb. I’ve chosed. Because living is for the brace. And brave is not...